Day 208 - Make Myself Throw Up

Date: August 2nd, 2010

In a wild swing the other direction from the amazing upliftingness that was the bridal shower or the superfab time that was the weekend on Holland, I decided to explore another one of the "things that aren't good for us".  A couple weeks ago, I spend the evening drinking by myself.  You know, for science.  So what else is there that we all just know is bad for us?  Well, bulimia, for one.

See, I went to the doctor that evening and we talked about good health options for me.  I realized its time to stop messing around with being unhealthy and lose the weight I've been carrying.  No more excuses.  But then, I had the same thought I always have at the start of a diet - too bad they can't just suck it out.  Wait, they can.  Why don't I do that?  Oh right.  The pain.

Then I had my usual kneejerk reaction to thinking about unhealthy ways to lose weight. "Oh no, I'd never do that".

Then I had the most unhealthy thought I'd ever had in my life.  "Wait, I'd never do that... that means I've never done it... that could be a thing of the day."  Brilliant, huh?

As I kneeled in front of the toilet, I waited for the little voice in my head to tell me it was a bad idea, but apparently that dude went on vacation.  So I leaned forward, did the finger trick that, quite frankly, I'm not sure how I knew, and voila.  Now.  First of all.  I'm bothered by how easy it was to make happen.  I know I have a strong gag reflex, as does every dentist I've ever had (sorry guys), but seriously.  That's the first thing.

The second point is that I hadn't eaten in several hours, which means it burned.  A lot.  It struck me how unhealthy a person's mental state would have to be before they would consider binging and purging to be a good idea.  I mean, it was incredibly painful.  It tasted awful.  My mouth had the aftertaste in it even after I brushed my teeth.  I can't think of a single good thing that came out of it - other than knowing how awful it is.

So that was my Monday - how was yours?  In all seriousness, from the standpoint of getting a better understanding of the unhealthy lengths people will go to lose weight, it was a great experience.  Sometimes there's nothing better than a visceral understanding of a situation to keep you in line.  I wouldn't recommend doing it though.  Just try to remember the last time you had the flu and you're good to go.